Cryptik Howling

Delirium
Raindrops disturbing the slow silence of night
Drunk again, I can hardly walk back home
I feel a near presence
I turn aside, a silhouette stands

A child with the devil's smile
Before me, plays his music box
An uneasy feeling catches me, I panic
I lose control, my skin shivers, I flee

I wake up out of myself
My senses are cheating me
I'm cold and shaking
I've dreamed a horrid nightmare
Where the shades played an irritating melody

Thousand of hands hold me nailed to my bed
A dazing swirl of voices tell me to remain
Hidden in the arms of the silent night

Showing an inwilling face, I force my way out
Taken by quavers, on the edges of madness
Sharpening my nerves

I curse God's name, 'cause my life's fake
Release me from that burning grip
That holds my sanity confined
Far off my glance & mind

If i commit suicide
Will I be released?

Intersecting disharmonic notes
Drowning my soul by force
Towards my prisons, my suicide