Sabachthani

I cant bow to you, dear lord if your hands are shaking
Hold your knife steady and firm
For you I will consume
I have bled all your flowers and unmasked your vast perfection
In loathe I turn away
But I hunger every day
I've lived all your wonders and I've seen the edges of you
The fear and the blood of christ
And your filthy paradise
Through the glass I can see them
All the ghosts that you believe in
Be still and touch me again
And I'll give you everything

Hear, what will I feel?
I cannot see
Read loudly to me my lord and forgive...
me, what will I be?
I cannot dream
Read loudly to me my lord and free me...

To this day I have never felt so lonely
Your hope shattering still, my fragile mind and will
I try and I listen to the snakes that slither around us
Your voice deep in my head
And I pour another drink
Your face isnt hidden
You're the mouth of every child that starve and bleed
The skull of a beast, in a carnival of greed
I cant bow to you dear lord for your hands are still shaking
violently and desperately
For you I will devour.

When you're done I'll get up and walk
through the desert and through the crowd
They'll touch me with your eyes
but father you will fail tonight
Here I stand in naked flesh
with your army watching me
I will not cry like him
I will not suffer for your sins
Let the children come to me
all the same for they cant believe
I lay my collar down
And drink your tears for one last time
Even now when you leave my side
and give birth to another christ
I would stand there in your light
But father I have forsaken me

what will I feel?
I cannot see
Read loudly to me my lord and forgive me
what will I be?
I cannot dream
Read loudly to me my lord and forgive me
what will I feel?
I cannot see
Read loudly to me my lord and forgive me
what will I be?
I cannot dream
Read loudly to me my lord and forgive me